I'm so glad He enjoys me

Let me go and experience God.

Let me come to Him as He created me to be.

Let me bring Him joy as I serve Him in this new way.

Let me enjoy giving Him joy.

Let me be as His son was on earth.

i am a peeled, perfectly placed sticker on a wall. only to have my adhesive stripped from me to attempt to stick onto a new home for a wall. i might never stick the same.
metaphors are lame....too bad i use them all the time

God's Works

THE PLANS OF THE HEART BELONG TO MAN, BUT THE ANSWER OF THE TONGUE IS FROM THE LORD. ALL THE WAYS OF MAN ARE PURE IN HIS OWN EYES, BUT THE LORD WEIGHS THE SPIRIT. COMMIT YOUR WORK TO THE LORD, AND YOUR PLANS WILL BE ESTABLISHED.

Proverbs 16:1-3

I purposefully wrote this first. I have been sharing with you for months now about a planted desire, and an action of trying to ask God if this is something He wants me to do. He has challenged me with asking time off work, missing the summer, raising over $4000 dollars and trusting in Him completely....that He can and will do it if I commit to Him.

Financial update is $4995.

He can...and He did.

Red Letters

Update:
-Financial: $1450
-Getting more and more emotionally prepared

mark 1:38

"Let us go on to the next towns, that I may preach there also, for that is why I came out"


so appropriate.

Portions

Update:
-Official Financial count: $800.00
-Mental Prep: Nervous but it's good & getting prepared
-Prayer Requests: Finances from all angles keep coming in, My nerves climax soon and I use the adrenaline to serve God and students. Pray for their awesome hearts. If we are praying in God's will, it will be done for us. John 15:7

I hate disappointing people. Especially people I love. It seems as though I always fail. The truth is, there is always room for it. Not matter what I do, I am a sinner...therefore I always have room in my actions and in my being to disappoint somebody, or more importantly...

God.

"When my soul was embittered,
when I was pricked in the heart,
I was brutish and ignorant;
I was like a beast toward you

Nevertheless, I am continually with you;
you hold my right hand.
You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will receive me to
glory.

Whom have I in heaven but you?
Any there is nothing on earth that I
desire besides you.

My flesh and heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever"

Psalm 73:21-26

a. This is some sweet poetry!
b. God is faithful and good. Nothing can separate us. Not height and not depth. Disappointing Him sucks, but we have a God who refines us through our mistakes and grows us closer to Him.

He is it.

Que: Music

Czech Update:
-Support Letters are being sent out this week, they rock
-I can physically and emotionally feel God revving me up to go. It's almost like an out of body experience. Rad.

No, I'm not putting songs from 1985 on here. My bangs would start to tease themselves with aquanet if I did that. You know when songs remind you of certain memories? This could be the worst thing or the best thing, obviously depending on what memory the song creates. If you had a soundtrack for ____ 's life (fill in your name) what would you have on it? Well here is the challenge:

1. scan through your itunes or cd library. refamiliarize yourself with the nooks and crannies of your musical options. 2. identify five categories — genres, if you will — of music. these should be as obscure and finely-articulated as you’d like. feel free to use modifiers liberally. 3. nominate — select, really — a “perfect song” for each category. include a link for each song to something (the amazon page for the CD, or the artist’s website, or whatever). you may find it easier, as i did, to find “perfect songs”, and craft categories or genres around them. 4. ideally, some of the songs will be nominally obscure, or, at least, not completely mainstream and overplayed. no need to tell us all about songs we all know!

These are mine:
"Driving home on late night and feeling particularly intense for some reason"... The Dumbing Down of Love by Frou Frou

"Laying by the pool, almost asleep, so very content, in love with life"...Fade Into You by Mazzy Star

"The love of your life just walked in the room (you haven't seen them in awhile) and it's smooch time"...Brightest by Copeland

"This is the most captivating image I have ever seen and I want to stare at it for a very long time"...Clair De Lune by Philippe Entremont

"Walking into a church by yourself. All you want to do is surrender"... I Will Wait for You There by Phil Wickham

Tell me what you think....

I've been sitting here too long (not metaphorically speaking...like my tush hurts right now)

UPDATE:
I have all of my support letters ready to go. All I need is the address to send support to. Check your mail soon...(Can I mention that I LOVE every one of you reading this?) :)

Ever since I got that rockin' phone call from Josiah Venture, I have had a major feeling. This feeling consists of excitement, fear and nervousness all in one. Surprisingly it creates a calm in me.

God is preparing me in a major way.

I want to disclose something to my favorites (that's you). I write these things not for the sole purpose of telling you how I am feeling about this mission, but I tell you these things because I want God to be visual. I want Him to get the credit for these thoughts of encouragement because He is the one who motivates me. If you look from the first day that I started blogging, until now, you can already see the beginning of something He is doing. How sovereign He is. How good He is. This is vulnerable for me (which I do not love, and I'm not good at) , yet God humbles me so that He is glorified.

"...that their hearts may be encouraged, being knit together in love, to reach all the riches of ful assurance of understanding and the knowledge of God's mystery, which is Christ" *Colossians 2:2

Preparing for what? Showing a love as authentically as I know how. Why?

"So we do not lost heart. Though our outer nature is wasting away, our inner nature is being renewed day by day. For this slight momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. Fir the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal."
*2 Corinthians 4:16-18 (emphasis mine)

Did you hear that? What did it say? Personally.

Lord- May I not lose heart.
i love you